This sweet little blog has been sitting patiently for two years with me ne'er touching it once, but now I'm giving it a new face and purpose. I do hope you will feel free to leave a trail of your message relating how you found your true Self; how you ripped off the social mask and became the real You. I'd love to hear it and on this blog I will put in as much as I can find relating to this topic of self-actualization.
I started my quest about five years ago. Something was nagging at me in my public relations jobs and somehow, someway I started following those feelings like bread crumbs leading me out of an area where I was clearly lost. All I knew was that in my mid-40s I still had to actualize my purpose as a writer, something I hadn't really put my full attention on (my fault, no one else's) since my 20s and not much even then. But whatever it was, it was burning inside me and so I started asking friends, family, and what I now know is the Universe for help, direction. My story is far from over but for the last year, I've started to find it.
I left teaching last summer for a funded sabbatical. My mother was sick of hearing me whine about being tired and paid my way to finish my first novel. It's still in its fourth draft and quite undone and not understood by me and she pretty much lost faith in me and told me 'no more!' I asked my boss at the school where I taught too many classes if I could return only to teach online and found myself suddenly unemployed. This was October 2007 and the party had begun. I've had many a night of wishing I could go back and take less classes and write that way, but somehow something always pulls through, and you know what? This is the way I am supposed to hunker down and write.
I want to get to a better place because I still have one daughter in college and another making her way in the fashion industry and I'd like to be able to help them both and not be such a burden, so I am 'damning the torpedos' onward! I am seeing it from the end.
Nice to meet you and feel free to leave a message about your Self actualization journey. I hope this blog will inspire and refresh any of you if you are in a place where you feel like you've missed your mark and maybe it's too late. It's not! Don't listen to the media, your parents, your friends, ignore anyone who tells you you can't do what you feel is your purpose!
My journey - albeit made with several enormous mistakes - is my journey and now I'm on it. I literally threw myself over the cliff and you know what?
I can fly.
And so can you.
Here we go. Feel free to tell your story. I will read it and display them here and we all will benefit.
Much love and remember, "The whole point of desire is to allow the Self to rejoice in Itself." (Sanskrit wisdom)
